My friend Roan asked if she could borrow my dance dvd. I once raved to her about it as it helped took 20 kilos (yes, 20 kilos!) off my weight in 2006. I used to weigh 65-68 kilos and for someone who’s an inch short of five feet, that’s heavy!
I slowly gained my weight since i came to Australia and kept it for about 8 years! Appearance wise, I didn’t care that I was heavy and fat. But my near collapse on a bus when I ran after it to catch it made me realise the risk I was in. I was heavy, unhealthy, risking heart disease, invalidity or death.
A hard process of self-assessment followed. Then, acceptance of the culprits:
1. love of food + no moderation = gluttony
2. lack of exercise and lack of will to start it = sloth
3. no care attitude about one’s appearance = self-denial.
Self-denial was the hardest to accept. I even denied that I was in self-denial. I said, I accept myself and people should accept me for who I am. I’m loved and that’s all that matters. I said, I am happy and beautiful inside and that’s all that should matter. To me, these mantras were true (and are still true today).
But reality was, I put everything at risk. Reality was, I was in the path of self-destruction by ignoring my body. Reality was, I didn’t care enough for my family to stay healthy and not get sick. There they stood, at risk of being troubled or hurt by losing a wife, a daughter, a sister because I was undisciplined, lazy and a glutton. That was the reality.
Well, that hit me hard. Hard enough to run to the mall and grab an exercise dvd, start on an exercise regime, and change my diet. I didn’t have any special diets. I didn’t enrol in a gym. I didn’t have a trainer and a coach. But I had motivation. I was self-driven. How did I lose all the extra weight in less than two months? …READ MORE… »